Due to his deteriorating health, the author wasLocked up in an apartment for nearly two years, with the exceptionOf hospital room visits and subsequent visits to several specialists. ThisImprisonment led to a bout of severe depression. It was during theDepression that the author wrote this material. The author kept a journal of a two-year time period in which the basicUnderlying quality of his life on all levels had become intolerable. He began writing after aFriend suggested that it may help him through his depression and it may evenbe cathartic for him. The author is known to have tremendous willpowerAnd strength to get through difficult time periods, however, the depressionHad overcome him. This time he let go. He wanted to know what it wouldIs like if he did! This book is the end result.